last month jeff blogged about the shoe effect, or becoming too comfortable in what you intended to be a tide-you-over job. this morning i woke up at 6:30am for training as a jimmy john's delivery driver. as the manager reviewed marketing principles and company policies, an uncomfortably familiar feeling emerged from my gut: enthusiasm. giddiness. pure, unadulterated company pride. oh no, i thought. not again!
forget that jimmy john's actually is a cool company and that i am beyond grateful to have a well-paying job in a city that is 20% unemployed. the point is this: historically speaking, anything involving people and moderate amounts of managerial praise makes me unreasonably gleeful. not high salaries. not promotions. or achieving long-term goals. just people, a positive work environment, and a solid marketing campaign. which is terrifying considering i HAVE long-term goals that DO NOT involve bringing you lunch in 20 minutes or less.
this inexplicable addiction to all things interpersonal causes hiccups in other aspects of my life. i have to actively remind myself that political campaign events are not tailgate parties and that i should not go out with someone simply because he expresses admiration for me.
make no mistake. i'm a big kid who generally makes wise decisions. it's just...i have...i think...i need a 12-step program.
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